Behind the Songs

I wrote this when I was infatuated with someone I hardly knew.  I remember seeing them and immediately feeling this deep rooted longing that lasted for too long.  As time went on, I was constantly asking myself is it bad things that I like them? Is it bad that I get butterflies every time they walk into a room? But no matter how bad I thought it might be, it also felt all too good.  So this dedicated to all the dreamy, starry eyed lovers out there, constantly falling in love with unattainable and equally unavailable people.

 The idea of something or especially someone meaning nothing to me has always been terribly daunting. It is often the most painful part of the process of letting go. It leaves you at the docks refusing to even step foot into a boat with the fear that once you to the light on the horizon you’ll miss the rocky waters and the docks you once stood on because at least then, it all meant something to you. I wrote this song knowing that it is something that needs to be accepted and embraced, if not with open arms, at least hesitantly.

I wrote this one when I was in the 10th grade. I really know how to fabricate a romance, so much so that it not only plays what seems to be the perfect melodies with my heart strings but weaves enchanting thoughts through the mind just as well. This song is about the idea of creating someone so amazingly and perfectly unattainable.  Because we all want what we can't have, right?

This one is quite special.  I love Christmas time, everything has a warm feeling tied to it and I can't help but feel like one of the happiest versions of myself during this time. But I quickly realized that it doesn't feel right without those that you love.  I wrote this one day while waiting for my sister to come home and wishing some other people were with me too to make cookies and scream-sing to Christmas songs with.